letter for no one

Dear you,

I know we’ve gone down this road too many times that I have actually lost count.  It still surprises me everytime how you manage to keep breaking my heart every single time.  What can I say, I must be sucker for the pain eh?

When I think of you now, when I think of the last words you told me, I could honestly feel the hollowness in my chest.  It’s a strange sensation really.  Like there’s not enough air, and everything is getting sucked inside me.  This must be what a black hole fills like, only I still feel pain.  How is that even possible?

I just wish to get numb.

You said the most awful things I didn’t want to hear.  I know I asked for it though.  Such a masochist.

I’m not sure how this would turn out in a few weeks, but please try to keep away.  I can’t go through this over and over again.  I can’t get numb enough.

Please don’t come back.

~ by crazypop on August 26, 2008.