Conversations with Myself

breaking down

crazypop — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 11:52:22 +0000

I said I love you the first time in some cheap motel with zombie war scenes in the background.

I am the stuff romance is made of.

I I I I I I I I I I I I I I

I can’t think about leaving you without crying. I like to pretend it’s okay, and I’m okay.

I meet someone who makes me feel good about us, and I have to leave him. Story of my life right there. Short bouts of happiness.

Maybe that’s all I am entitled to have.

People tell me I’m pre-empting this ending. I know for a fact I am not. Sure I can pretend and make-believe there is a future here. How? I see no possibility.

I’m leaving. He’s leaving. Sure, maybe we can push it through for the next couple of months. But then what? It doesn’t even matter if I come back or not. He wouldn’t be here. And what would I do there. It’s not possible.

So when do I end it?

letter for no one

crazypop — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:34:39 +0000

Dear you,

I know we’ve gone down this road too many times that I have actually lost count. It still surprises me everytime how you manage to keep breaking my heart every single time. What can I say, I must be sucker for the pain eh?

When I think of you now, when I think of the last words you told me, I could honestly feel the hollowness in my chest. It’s a strange sensation really. Like there’s not enough air, and everything is getting sucked inside me. This must be what a black hole fills like, only I still feel pain. How is that even possible?

I just wish to get numb.

You said the most awful things I didn’t want to hear. I know I asked for it though. Such a masochist.

I’m not sure how this would turn out in a few weeks, but please try to keep away. I can’t go through this over and over again. I can’t get numb enough.

Please don’t come back.

stupid fight

crazypop — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 15:20:53 +0000

What’s the matter, peanut butter?

Nagoya annoyed me this morning.

Hm.. Two days after your trip down memory lane, and you’re already annoyed. What happened?

You’ll think it’s stupid.

Yeah, well, I think you’re stupid for still talking with him, I doubt this will make it any worse.

You do know I hate you right?

Yeah, yeah. Just get on with your drama.

This was how it started:

ym conversation

I seriously think the 60 megapixel thing is a bit overboard. Especially since I read that minimum for billboard is only 6 megapixels.

ym conversation

He’s being an idiot right? Srly. How long would the ROI be if you use something as expensive as that? Plus, that would take years to upload. Plus, why is he even picking on it so much? Issue much are we?

Wow. that is stupid! Stupid conversation that is. What can I say, you attract strange men.

Yeah, well, strange men are good in bed.

*palmface*

WordCamp Philippines is here

crazypop — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 10:14:58 +0000

I used to have an account with wordpress, the now dead http://onemoreaddiction.wordpress.com, but I deleted it a few months back as I mainly posted almost the same things as the things I post in my other blog. Plus, I was having a hard time trying to edit my stuff around. So I gave up.

I’m giving this new blog another spin though. I sortof have an idea now what to do about it, so let’s see how this one fares.

Today I signed up to go be in

WordCamp Philippines 2008!

Honestly I have no idea what to expect. But I hear it is going to be teh awesome. So yeah, I’m in. Hopefully, I wouldn’t be too blonde to not know what they would be talking about.

Or maybe I wouldn’t get it! Que horor!

Sponsors to thank for my spiralling down the slide of possible blonde-ness:

So for those coming, see you at the Augusto-Rosario Gonzalez Theater, College of Saint Benilde in Manila, on September 6, 2008.

Also thanks to the Mindanao Bloggers for making this happen.

On recycling boys

crazypop — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 07:13:37 +0000

So, what’s this I hear about you and Nagoya.

Uh, there’s a me and Nagoya?

Obviously, none, given that Nagoya is still with his hideous girlfriend.

OMFG! You’re evil!

We both know we both think that about the gf. But going back, explain yourself and the things that went on last week.

Oh, that! Um, just a little conversation between friends.

Little conversation my ass! Since when did you start talking dirty to friends eh?

Wha-?! You were evesdropping! I. Am. Shocked.

I do live in your head ya’know? Man, sometimes I think I have all the neurons.

*mumble mumble*

So, are you going to answer the question properly this time?

Yeah, yeah. Alright! I admit, there was a little flirting-

*snorts*

OK! Alot of flirting going on. But it didn’t mean anything.

Obviously! Else I’ll be seeing a single status in the Friendster and Facebook accounts! So why are you still there? We both know it’s not leading anywhere we’d like.

Oh. Um, I’m not sure exactly.

Pfft! I do have all the neurons.